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Friday, 08 February 2008
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ugh.
i am going to have to work soo hard to be at 128 by tuesday.
its friday..
i have 4 days left not including today...
and i am CW; 133 STILL.
oh god.
fuck.
i will update more later...
Tuesday, 05 February 2008
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CW: 133!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i have lost 3 pounds in 3days! its still a gross weight but its good to know i have made somesort of progress!
so i managed day 1 yesterday
i am on day 2
i hope io will make it
i WILL make it
i hoope you all are doing great
hmmm...so saturday i am dying my hair..woo!
im scared though i have never done it myself
but i am using REVELON colorsilk black and also that Loreal color stuff (its fucia)
anyone know if the Loreal stuff works well?
i will be doing the underneath of my hair black and than a FEW color streaks of Fucia in it...
here is a pic of my hair NOW...think it will look bad after what im gunna do???
yesterdays intake:
orange
apple
Monday, 04 February 2008
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So this weekend i did HORRID. But today is a new week and it will be better.
I am fasting today, tuesday and wednesday.
Only allowing Fruits and Veggies.
and of course water.
CW:136
i am to be at 128 by next tuesday.
i think that is Overly manageable.
dont you?
Who will fast with me? anyone?
Say Cheese
by SmileItsNotOkay
Ready? On the count of three,
fake a smile and say cheese!
you can run but you can't hide
you falter on your hidden lies.
Deep blue eyes just like the ocean,
the only place you will find emotion.
She falls into abyss, as she lets herself go.
Take a deep breath, she knows she's alone.
No one to talk to, no one to understand.
No one to give her a helping hand.
Yet she smiles and laughs everyday
tries to help you in every way.
Deep in her heart, she's bleeding alive.
And when she's alone all she does is cry.
Why can't you see past this pretty girls mask?
just take some notice, that's all that she asks.
cause all she wants is to be normal, you see?
wake up in the morning and feel happy.
but she paints on a smile and wipes her eyes,
and prepares for another day made of lies.
Ready? On the count of three,
fake a smile and say Cheese!
Friday, 01 February 2008
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I feel so disgusting
i binged...
i feel sooo sick, so failed so ......monsterous.....
wtf is wrong with me?? i am so fat yet i BINGE! on FOOOODD....and i only get fatter,,,
well FUCK this...
no more food...not any! for a fucking long ass time...
idc anymore, i dont care if ppl KNOW ither!
im not hiding it b/c when i try i wind up binging!
so fuck it...if some1 wants me to eat i simply say "no" and if they bug me about i will just be honest and tell them i CANNOT eat without overeating.. and so i am not eating....
i fucking CRY over eating a fucking plate of spaghettti when thats all i ate the entire day. soooo....NO FUCKING MORE!!!
Wednesday, 30 January 2008
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Don't give up what you want most,
for something you want now.well today is going okay i guess...just pretty boring..i miss my boyfriend lots/ but i am not having lunch today and i am trying to get out of dinner.
but i just want to say i realli appreciate the girls that support me and leave me comments and stuffs. it means alot and it helps me be stronger. i know it sounds corny an dshit but still its true! i love you girls! <3 lol.
damage;
b= 2 coffee: 200
l=none
d=tba
thinspo:
wow! dramatic change!
thast great! lol
buh_byefatty2008
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- Name: buh_byefatty2008
- Birthday: 4/9/1992
- Gender: Female
- Member Since: 1/16/2008
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